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[Filter: Private, in Old High Kilian]

He seems so... distant, over there. He was growing farther away all the time, even when he was here. But now it's even worse. I don't know what he'll find. If he'll find anything there at all. The longer it takes, the further away he becomes. It always makes me question whether or not I've done the right thing by staying behind. I don't like that feeling. I have a life here, don't I?

Everything I told Jonathan was true. Being here around humans like this... it's changed me so much. I've learned so much. And at the same time, not enough. I wonder if it's... it just feels like there might have been something we were meant to do. And we failed, somehow. That's why we couldn't go with them. That's why we were left.

It never does any good to sit and think over this. I just wonder ...