May 14, 633 AR
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deirfiur[Filter: Private, in Danaan]
It was meant to help us. That's obvious. Trying to worm around her rules to give us a hint.
If I go back to what I was like before we left .... I was so bossy all the time, wasn't I? I used to boss Patience around all the time. We would still argue but I was so sure I was right, and I was so convinced that nobody could drag me out of it. It was like that up until ...
I wonder. If Patience and I hadn't been taken by those people, would ... would I be more like I used to?
Or maybe it was Rina. Dentoria. Aelbhe made a whole point of talking about how different Dentoria is. And it is, isn't it? People talk differently. They behave differently. They expect different things from you and it's not like I could be bossy there. I went from being out in the middle of nowhere with Patience to being with Rina and her family. I was a guest. You don't tell people what to do or expect to get your way when you're a guest. And it's an inn. You're supposed to help people. Listen to them, get them what they need. Nod and smile.
What was I like before?
What would I have been like if I was still that person? And if everyone had told me how important I was?
Proud.
I would be proud.
But can I be proud enough to reach her?
It was meant to help us. That's obvious. Trying to worm around her rules to give us a hint.
If I go back to what I was like before we left .... I was so bossy all the time, wasn't I? I used to boss Patience around all the time. We would still argue but I was so sure I was right, and I was so convinced that nobody could drag me out of it. It was like that up until ...
I wonder. If Patience and I hadn't been taken by those people, would ... would I be more like I used to?
Or maybe it was Rina. Dentoria. Aelbhe made a whole point of talking about how different Dentoria is. And it is, isn't it? People talk differently. They behave differently. They expect different things from you and it's not like I could be bossy there. I went from being out in the middle of nowhere with Patience to being with Rina and her family. I was a guest. You don't tell people what to do or expect to get your way when you're a guest. And it's an inn. You're supposed to help people. Listen to them, get them what they need. Nod and smile.
What was I like before?
What would I have been like if I was still that person? And if everyone had told me how important I was?
Proud.
I would be proud.
But can I be proud enough to reach her?
